Such Ignorant Bliss

A great love of mine is gone that never really was.
In its place: the pain of heartache without a just cause.
I felt you slipping slowly, so very far away from me.
I never even had you, so how could that be?

You were long gone before you were even here.
So why is it that I must shed these horrid old tears?
You were never more than any other ordinary men.
So why must I now put to this paper, this pen?

A mere few weeks with you of such ignorant bliss,
Is that the heaven I've convinced myself to miss?
I thought the gleam I saw in your eyes was love.
You told me you were sent specially to me from above.

The multitude of lies that you told I this day forgive,
It is a wiser and more peaceful life that I now do live.
The moments we shared were all just a dream,
For nothing about you is truly as it once seemed.

You never meant a single sweet word that you said.
You just played me for a fool until your interest was dead.
I gave you everything that I could find inside me to give,
Thinking that now that you were here, I would truly begin to live.

You fraudulently lifted me up and gave me such unfounded hope,
It has taken me quite some time now just to learn how to cope.
I had planned so much with our future together in mind,
Never once dreaming that you'd ever leave me behind.

You taught me a lot about this world and yourself,
With the way you threw me on this dust-filled shelf.
If I only trust my instincts more, then I'll never again be let down,
Or played for a fool yet another time all over this one-horse town.

I've learned to hold myself dearer in the quickly coming years,
And to keep away from people who always cause me these tears.
My heart is far too precious to give the likes of you,
So I'll hold a tight rein on it until I find a love that's true.

For one day I will meet my soul mate, my one true man,
And I'll know that it's right the moment he takes my hand.


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